Vihaan had to go for Mansha to come

As I sit here watching my daughter Blow Bubbles with so much Joy and Utter Bliss, her right leg injured from a fall in the bathroom as she Seized, and yet she singing and Blowing Delightful bubbles in the air…She doesn't know what a seizure is and how and what happens to her while she has one.. It's what I go through as the parent watching her have one.. And having to figure my coping ways over the years to be ok with it..

She gives so much Joy with her Blowing those bubbles to every passer-by-adult in my mother's building, sitting in her first floor balcony.The morning hours where everyone is busy in their lives, going to work, helter-skelter, and here is Mansha Blowing Bubbles of Joy.. Reminding us to Pause, See, Smile and Enjoy popping that one Bubble. It takes just a moment to get so much from a moment. So much Ease, So much Joy,and most importantly a SMILE on our faces in our “Hurried” “Busy” lives..

This Best,Bester and Bested Human being had come into my life 13 years and 9 months ago.. And My World has been Spinning ever since.. What an indescribable journey it's been.. And yet the most real and most vulnerable journey of our lives.. She's shown me from day one that the only purpose of this lifetime is to “Let it Go” and “the Other way” She says the most profound things in the simplest of ways. She sees Beauty and Wonder in the Mundane Things. She Smiles and you can Dive into the depths of that pure, heart- melting Smile and forget that anything else exists besides her and her Smile..

I cry so many tears of Joy and Deepest Gratitude as I write this..my heart is over full with So much love which only a parent can feel, but now more so, being a single parent and our journey ever since that day, around 6 years ago of becoming one..

She is Neurodivergent and on the Lovely Spectrum and that makes me realise, aren't we all..? Yes we are,and we never got to show off  or even realise or acknowledge our Gifts to the world..

It's been amazing to see her gifts and celebrate those and share those with everyone.. Just like her We need more kinder, more compassionate, more caring, more grateful people on this planet and she's all of them in one, everyday teaching me more and more, everyday loving everyone and everything around endlessly without boundaries, everyday showering us with endless Love and compassion..

How she loves and how she connects, what amazing Puzzles and Mazes-the ways that she brings them together into life…In every little detail she sees, every bite of food that she blesses and that she's constantly grateful for, the number of times she thanks people for everything they bring and are, and the kindest,purest and most loveingest Soul that she is..

How blessed am i for this? Don't have enough words or the right words to describe this feeling.. 

and the one reality that I'm coming to terms with finally is this- 

Vihaan had to leave for Mansha to come..

Vihaan is my first born on 24th Dec 2008, in Delhi.. And he was Divine…He left us in his sleep on 31st Dec 2008.. He is now a fluttering Butterfly of almost 16 years..if he didn't leave, Mansha would not be here.. So,my deepest Gratitude to this Soul who chose to come into our lives for 9 months and 7 days and took his journey to be with ours and then depart so that his sister could arrive for his mother's Total and Complete Transformation..

Vihaan thank you for visiting us in the form of Butterflies, and reminding me to be Grateful for Mansha and Grateful to you for leaving ..

So she could ARRIVE and For me to REALISE

Butterflies and Rainbows your way..

Poorva , For Mansha and always Vihaan’s mother!