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Expectations. Where does it come from? Patterns that we figure out ourselves for survival. Those are observations though. When does it turn to expectations. The psychology is interesting. The way we get influenced from books and movies, reltives, friends, teachers etc or in short our environment and starts defining things and starts preaching ourselves that things “should” be like this and that. O...
Remember how you were asked when young, “who is your friend in class”? I used to get it from the relatives doing small talk with a school going girl. Another favourite question was “which is your favourite subject!”. Though I could answer snything for the latter, the former always left a knot in me.I figured out later that I am neither extrovert or introvert. So there was a grouo of nerds at schoo...
I have always been told that I ask too much. That I could be a lawyer and such. I keep wondering why is it not so normal. Aren’t all human beings curious!? Isn’t that what made them survive till now!? The questions of how to get the next meal, where, what is needed, why its needed etc. Earlier the why part was easy to answer. For food, shelter, thirst, protect from animals, from other human beings...
Every day I have a chance to do something different. Most days I fail. Distractions are too many. Or is it that I love them and jump into it because I am not sure whether I can withstand the failure when I do. The fear of losing the hope that I wrote about in Day 1. For long, I have been wanting to go back to posting something. Creating something. Long back it used to be blogs, stories, then it ch...
Small steps. Thats what I have been aiming for this year. Most of the days I fail. The vehicle is barely on first gear. On some days I don’t even measure how much I moved. But there is time more to do the year end reflective post. As of now, cult is helping me 3 days a week. Have always likes games. And the gamification helps. Wanna know my Duolingo and Airlearn streak!? Though I left them now. Th...
New month.New beginnings.Just before another new year.The hopes arise everytime just before the dawn. Amazing thing it is. The hope. Help us to survive. To try again. Its so powerful that we realise the value of it only when we dont have it anymore. How much ever we try its so hard to bring it back. Very few does have that magic. Love is one of them. Love towards money, relationships, or success, ...
Those sounds. The sounds of horns blaring as if in a competition. The sound of public bus braking inch by inch stuck in the traffic. The sound of fan in the room. The sound of people talking in the garden below. The sound of kids crying or shouting among them. The sound of keyboard being typed in the next room. The sound of mosquito roaming around near me. The subtle sound of the bamboo windchim...
He seems to be comfortable spending the whole day sleeping. Not much of talks, no wishes to travel much or meet people. But is there a norm to follow for people who has retired? What do society expects of people who don’t have the need to work? Is it really required that they need to contribute or do meaningful activities to the society? Isn’t that subjective? He may be depressed and wanting someo...
A hesitation for new startPalpitations in the heartDetermination being wavyDisappointment seems heavyIdeas and questionsTurmoils and confusionsHeadache and chest tighteningBreathlessness in the makingUnraveling the knotsFiguring out the plotsThe hardest part of it allAccepting broken pieces of the whole.
She said she forgave me. Then she locked the door.She was excited the whole day and the whole week. Next day was the Saturday I promised I would take her out on. I wondered how to talk to her regarding the unexpected change of deadlines at the office today. As night fell, I mustered up the courage and explained it all with a heartfelt sorry. She was kind enough to accept the changes and smiled at ...