My First Raw-kinda writing, I Guess

Series: Welcome to My Brainrot - 1

Now that I have you here, how about we explore the possibilities coming out of a semi-toxic combination of overthinking and an imagination that runs in all directions.

When I was a kid, my thoughts ran like a superfast train.

Station to Station, topics varying every stop every station, like every passing station name was something to be thought about, talked about, and experienced - all at once.

The magic so tempting you’d bow to every possibility and make it run as fast as possible.

Such is the mind of an explorer, a wanderer, a curious engine running on rocket fuel. 

But soon came the realisation, the brain train is more than capable,

Running multiple trains in parallel - a piece of cake

And so the tracks split and my mind became the super-conductor (geddit? electrical signals travelling in brain with superconductor? Geddit? Now?)

The love for running the trains of thoughts and ideas,

managing and creating a new network of tracks,

just pure uncontrolled expansion became a habit.

And then came a point that every unchecked enterprise reaches.

A habit without any check or maintenance for nurturing became an addiction,

The addiction became a spiral,

a spiral became burden,

and burden lead to an eventual wear-off 

causing burnout and shutdown.

Such has been my journey with growth in life.

All my life I have wanted is challenges, and I have been blessed with them without brakes.

While the thrill of chasing them and asking for more became an obsession,

it also became my reason for my crash landings.

I have recently learned to check in and let the brain train rest for a few min at stops,

and leave overnight for regular maintenance.

My struggles have been a lesson that my brain still finds boring to learn,

but I’m learning limitations and boundaries and how to say NO. 

I love that I have a functional brain, but NO, let me breathe. 

I have not written in last 1 year and have been an avid consumer of instagram reels. This is the best that came out of a brain rot. So hope this is not as rotten as my brain is right now. Peace. :)